I’ve listened to this song since I watched 13 hours in the movie theatre. It has been with me since I joined the Marine Corps and listened during many occasions. I’ve listened before and after lifting in the gym, while reading, driving to work and walking on the beach, after the greatest of times with close friends and driving away from them. When I had to move to a different state and start over. During moments of solitude and moments I found clarity and inspiration. I’ve never thought to listen to a slowed version because the original was deep enough for me to ask and address questions in my life. Last month, I watched Mom take her last breath in the hospital and no longer have any parents/grandparents to guide me in life. It initially inspired negative emotions of fury and hate. I thought of the values and example she showed me during her life and I wanted to always make her proud. The six years that I was gone, I never realized that when my mom loved me, from birth and growing up that she saw the best version of me that I was always aspiring to be like. She loved me in the moment and also had vision to see me at my absolute best. Like a marble stone as I sculpt the best version of myself. I have these little moments that cut me when I envision myself at certain milestones she won’t be apart of. Introducing a love, marriage, receiving my degree and commissioning as an officer, or seeing her sons all under the same roof again. Tiny little deaths, but as she kept her love and faith for me. I must honor her as if she were still here today. I must keep my faith just like she did. I know of the cliche of being a better son, but I could of truly done better in recent years of connecting with her more. It was quite difficult under the circumstances and thankful for my older brother for being there with her during her treatments through the years. Reading through the comments reminded me of the emotions. I use the emotions to create and inspire myself for something good and worthwhile. Pain only lasts within us when we are in the past. I’m learning again how to live presently and joyfully as I can. Because with all the adversity and shitty situations we’ve been through. We’ll get through it. I just pray that we allow it to improve us and not destroy what we created already. Thank you. -Hercules
Inspired Knight 