Since the end of 2021, I’ve taken two SATs and missed the score for a prerequisite in the Marine Corps. I signed up for another SAT two days before I begin a course in Quantico.
I put my goal to go through 1800 questions before my actual test and on today’s mini-test I missed 9/10.
I lay on the ground in disbelief and laughed at the thought that this wasn’t the hard part. I was fighting so hard to be in a place that I might not be qualified for.
If God or the universe really doesn’t want me to do this; I’m going to have to be medically separated or die before I change my mind.
Earlier in the year, I read Endurance by Scott Kelly and he had similar thoughts before he embarked on a journey to be a pilot in the Navy and eventually an astronaut.
I know myself and I trust my intuition. I don’t want to tell my kids that I gave up because I was discouraged by a few math problems. So I get up, write this down, shared it with you, and start over with a clear head.
Inspired Knight 